Its a common thing, atleast for me, i tell you. I think a lot about many things, i wrote so before many times. And i worry a lot aswell.
I got my parents, a sister, my girlfriend and my pets – so theres a lot to worry about. My own life though – naaa. I dont really worry about that. Im not really all that self-centered. Atleast thats what i want to believe while im thinking that im propably one of the most self-centered people ever.
Not the topic i want to write about right now though. So, i worry a lot. And with my girlfriend its always something like ‘hmmm, i wrote something to her and shes not responding for an hour or two now. Maybe something bad happened? Ohmygodohmygodohmygodohmygod…’. And so on. You get the idea. And then i start to worry like hell. I think about how i should act right now and if really something could have happened to her. I think about if i should write her once more. I usually do that. A few times.
Aaaand then the whole thing goes to shit town. If it wasnt already there before that. I wrote her a few times by then. When she actually looks on her phone later on shes usually pissed. I annoy her a lot with my constants worry-messages where i ask if everything is fine with her. Sometimes i also try to start some meaningless small talk because of the very same reason. Im not really a person that likes small talk to begin with, so i dont really know how to do that properly. And its kinda noticable that i just do it so that she responds to me so that i know that shes fine.
Thats pretty much where i am right now at this very moment. I wrote something dumb and shes not answering. I expect her to be mad at me for that and i worry about her because shes not responding. Hmmmm…
I propably wrote a lot of nonsensical stuff right now. My brain is kinda whacky and im not sure if the sentences and words that im writing are actually making any sense. Propably not. But i thought that i should write it down somewhere. For reasons. I dont know. I just sometimes do things that im not supposed to do. Im sorry for bothering you guys with this. And im especially sorry for bothering my girlfriend with that too quite so often.