Just yesterday i questioned myself what i actually should do with this blog. I posted about this too. What am I to do with this platform that i created for myself to express my thoughts?
I thought quite a bit about this in the last 2 days. In the beginning i was really negative about it. I thought that i should stop blogging in general. It seemed futile to me – it didnt seem to me like i was getting anywhere with that what i was doing. But what was i really doing in the last few weeks?
And this is the moment where i need to be honest. I flaundered. I started this blog, as i posted 2 days ago too, to express my thoughts and ideas in some sort of written form. I didnt start with the intention that others out there should actually like what i do here. I just wanted to get all that stuff out there so that i dont have to keep it to myself anymore. Deep inside of me i hoped that some of you guys might like my posts and stories, but i didnt want to admit that to myself. So i just started doing my thing. in the beginning i didnt even post regularly, i did it how i felt i should do it.
But after a while things turned out to what i actually thought about the whole blogging thing. I want you guys out there to read my posts. I dont do it just for myself, although this is one of the reasons too.
In general there are 2 main reasons for me to post on this blog:
1. That what i meantioned above. I do it for myself. Its like a therapy to me – i think a lot in my daily life and i need to get all that stuff out of me. I cant tell all of that to other people because every person gets annoyed at some point if you mention something often enough. But a blog doesnt get annoyed. Thats a plus. The only thing that will happen here is that people online wont give it a like. But that shouldnt matter all the time – sure, sometimes it does, but even if you guys dont like it i still want to be proud of what i wrote. Which brings me to the other reason.
2. I do it so that others enjoy it. I have to admit that to myself. I want you guys to like what i do. I want to create content that people read and dont get bored with. Thats the point of stories in general i believe and it shouldalso be the goal of normal blog posts – like, i posted about the weather a few times. Does that really matter to anyone? I highly believe not. It does not matter to me either. So why do i even post something like that?
Simple reason – i just wanted to post something. This is a problem that i noticed a while ago that i want to deal with several changes to my blog that i will write about in a second. I wrote that i posted daily so i always wanted to post daily. But i also want to create good content that is longer then just 20 words. This wont work out in the long term.
And so, lets talk about changes. First of all, you might have noticed it already, i changed the blog theme. You might not like it, but i believe it gives the blog a unique touch. Im really just scrapping along too, so a theme with the name “scrapbook” is really not all that wrong. I also want to focus on my texts, so i want to present you a site that provides you with a good environment to be able to do so.
I also will change my blog post schedule. You will not notice all that much of it most of the time. But let me explain that a bit.
I used to blog every day in the last few weeks and months. I wont do that anymore. Atleast i wont guarantee that anymore. My guaranteed blog posts will go online every 2 days from now on. I might post one or more posts between those, but if i dont want to i wont. Simple stuff. This hopefully will give me some more time to create actually really good posts and not just something like ‘Its raining over here. Amazing stuff’.
I also want to focus again on more stories and maybe even drawings. You might have noticed this aswell, the drawing that represents the logo that i have on this blog right now is made by me. I may not the best artist out there, but atleast its made by me, right?
That image and the one from this post also shows what kind of general theme i want to go for on this blog – its not content related, but i really like bears. My girlfriend mentioned before that i kinda look like a bear too. So i will keep it all bear-like on this blog.
Alright, now that i wrote all sorts of things about how my blog is changing right now and in the next few days, theres some more stuff regarding my stories.
A few weeks ago i started creating flash fiction stories. I still really like that and i want to continue writing those. I also had a longer story going on that i posted about from time to time. I wont continue that one. I feel like i wrote myself into a corner with that one. Even though i still want to express something similar to that story that i wrote about in those posts in the past i dont want to do it the way i did it until now. The start from it was good in my opinion – trying to tell a story with a character that explains stuff by creating a history of past events. I noticed that that i moved too much into the past. I couldnt get out of that to the present of the story without creating something weird. So i will sack it to start a new longer story. Ill explain the world and the history there like a documentation too – it wont be something that a person explains fromhis own perspective though – more like a history lesson in school or so. Im not really sure yet. I will post the remaining posts that i have about that though. There are like 2 and a half posts left.
So, i will get my next story post of my old, now discontinued, story out there on sunday. Have fun out there until then!